I have had experience with relationships that have completely changed my perspective on the world that I live in and the life I play to live. Relationships are the bonds that we build; the memories we make strength those bonds. When I was younger I had very few friends. In middle-school I was picked on, bullied, isolated, made an outsider. Why? Because my school I went to was full of spoiled brats who that they could do anything they wanted so they did so, trying to be funny these immature kids made my life hell from 5-8 grade. Until around 6th-7th grade I actually started making friends with the kids who also did not like the "popular" group. These few kids, made me feel for once in my life that I wasn't alone, i had someone else to stand by my side to back me up. The closer I got to these kids the more I started to hate all the others who tried to make us feel inferior. After I graduated 8th grade I felt as though I could start a new life in high-school make new friends, leave a new impression, be a better person. I told myself I wouldn't make the same mistakes I did in middle-school. So when I started my freshman year I was looking forward to the possibility of making a ton of friends considering there are around 1,000 new freshman every year. For a while I jumped around from group to group, messing with the soccer kids then other groups (changing primarily around the girls that I dated/talked to). At the end of my freshman year I had a break-up with a specific girl, the RELATIONSHIP was difficult on me me emotionally and I kept thinking that I wasn't good enough or that I was constantly messing up even when most of the time it wasn't me. After that i was in a rough spot. Because of the breakup her "friends" didn't talk to me and one of my other good friends during that time actually stopped talking to me for a while to try to get close to my ex. Good friend right? But what happened during that down stage is what really set my course for the rest of high-school and possibly my life. I started getting close to two of my old middle-school friends, Clint Kefer and Jacob Marzo, along with a girl I originally wanted to be my "rebound gf". To me she became someone I couldn't be with but someone I still wanted to see happy even if that meant she would be with someone else. Eventually I realized I had to stop chasing so I ended up not talking to her and we became distant. The thing that I took away from those times was that I wanted a relationship with someone who I could be with regularly or just make happy. Someone who enjoys being around me and wants to be with me. But so far no luck. My other best friends carried me through my entire high school career. They were there for me when I needed them and in return I did my absolute best to be there for them when they needed me; give them somewhere to go, someone to talk to, a place to stay when they had no where else to go. And in return they made me feel like someone cared. They were my brothers who cared for me more openly then anyone else could. They taught me to be positive and to spread joy and happiness to every single person I walk into. They helped me build up the confidence that I never had. Because of them I feel able to make the changes in my life that need to be made. I can engage conversations with or just do the small things to make peoples live a little bit better. I hate to say this sometimes but the truth is that without these friends, these experiences, I would not be here. I would have died and rotted away in my room playing video games or crying myself to sleep from loneliness. Even now I feel alone now that they are gone, but their strength will always be with me, helping me when I need it most. Because of them I can go around and see the good in the world around me.